I’m not going to lie, tonight I really don’t want to write this post. Like really, really, really don’t want to.
My brain feels empty, I can’t think of anything worth chatting about, and I would much rather read my book on the couch than sit at the dining room table on my laptop.
Here’s what I know, though…
Pushing myself to write, especially when I’m facing resistance, is teaching me about the value of consistency. Beyond that, it’s giving me discipline, it’s showing me that things can’t always be rainbows and butterflies, and you better believe it’s lighting a little fire in me that wants to keep pushing (the idea of breaking my Daily Blogging Challenge now seems impossible).
Don’t get me wrong, I get that sitting down to write everyday isn’t exactly the most difficult of tasks. It’s not like I challenged myself to run a marathon or anything, but still, it’s a commitment that I have to do even when I don’t want to.
There’s value in that.
Still, even as I write this, I don’t know where this post is going, or what it’s even about really.
But I guess that’s the little mini lesson for today:
I need to learn to accept when things are hard, but continue to do them anyway.
I need to learn to not accept defeat.
I need to learn to push myself, while also accepting my limitations.
Right now, I accept that my brain is taped out on the writing, and I accept that I’m not going to be able to write anything that I’m proud of because of that.
At the same time, though, I’m also pushing myself to write this despite my certainty that good writing goes beyond my capabilities at the moment.
If there’s anything in your life that you’ve committed yourself to doing, do it! No matter what.
Don’t make excuses. Don’t wait for someone to tell you that it’s okay to quit (it’s not). And don’t sell yourself short.
You’re capable of pushing yourself. Even if pushing yourself means that your performance for the day isn’t as good as it normally is, it doesn’t matter. You always have another day. You don’t need to be one hundred percent everyday, but you do need to be dedicated everyday.
Let a little struggle into your life. It won’t be pretty. But, trust me, it’ll be worth it when you’re stronger because of it.
(my apologies for how cheesy that sounded, but it’s just the truth).
And so, even though I know this post isn’t anything special, and even though I know it’s not my best piece of writing, I’m still going to post it on my blog.
Blogging experts might tell me that posting mediocre work is a mistake, but honestly, I think showing my real honest struggle with writing daily is one of the best decisions that I could make.
It’s raw and real, and I think the world of blogging could use a little more of that.
Not to mention, I made a commitment to myself, and I’ll be damned if I’m going to turn my back on that now.
Here’s to following through on the commitments that you make to yourself!